What’s hideous? Oh, that would be me.

So yeah, I’m really feeling a bit shitty at the moment. I am one of these unfortunates who lets all the bad shit build up into one stupid release.

I am one of these people who really quite likes to be in a relationship. However, there are a great many obstacles to this. Firstly, if you hadn’t noticed by now, I’m not actually very attractive. Having funky hair does not make a person look good. It just makes a shit person have funky hair. And you know what? It isn’t just that I’m fat. I haven’t always been these big and I looked just as hideous back then as I do now. Oh I know that anyone who bothers reading this will just disagree by default of being nice, but you know what? You don’t have to live with the slightly smug looks that people give to them that are fatter and uglier than they are. And the slight looks of disgust of women who seem to be offended that they have to share pavement so close to me. I can only remain bubbly in the face of so much of this shit before it just gets to me.

It hideous. And, yeah, if I wasn’t so fat, it would probably be a bit easier. Less looks and so on. But you know what? It really is amazingly hard to just diet like that, and get the exercise in. It is for me anyway. I just cannot do this sort of thing. and the fact that I smoke is clearly not going to help in any way either of course.

And even if I was to lose weight through some miracle. Then what? Hell, I don’t have any job and I have reasonably low motivation to be honest with you. It’s hard for me because I am used to doing what I do. Getting a job is a tough thing to do. And hey, what sort of scummy woman goes out with guys that don’t have a job? Dole chavs. And even they wouldn’t touch me with a barge pole.

But even if I did somehow get into shape, quit smoking, get myself a job and all of that stuff. What then? I’ll still be ugly with my crooked nose and my mouth that doesn’t sit right. It’s unsettling to look at. Besides, I have never and WILL never be able to talk to new females. I just know that they will laugh and send me away if I tried. And I certainly wouldn’t know what to say.

Basically I have one of two choices.
Firstly, I can try and find somebody online. A nice choice, but this leads to a whole heap of sub-clauses. Generally, females that like me online only ever seem to like me if they are very far away, foreign or very much taken. And sometimes a mix of all three. So that’s out.
Secondly, I can go out and just hope that, somehow, there is a reasonable looking girl out there who would actually approach ME. As I have more chance of winning the lottery, I can cancel this one as well.

So basically, I am in an eternal situation that has no actual escape.

Lovely.

7 Responses to “What's hideous? Oh, that would be me.”


  1. 1 Filipa Nov 8th, 2006 at 2:01 am

    Ok now, I’m not the right person to leave a comment as… well… basically I’m just another girl online.
    You think I only say I like you or that I don’t think you’re ugly just because I’m nice. That’s not true. I really like you and your hair and your nose and your blue eyes and your purple piercing.
    About getting a job I also can’t talk much as I don’t have one (or I do, but I don’t get payed for studying).
    About the being fat part I cant really talk too as I lost 10kg (you convert it to pounds or Idontknowwhat) basically cause I’m too lazy to get my own food so I just sit in front of the computer for hours with a bottle of water and (with some luck) a banana to eat. It’s not advisable or healthy.
    I also know that leaving this comment here wont probably help much as you will still think the same about me no matter how many times I tell you this.
    That was all. Try not to listen to depressing music.

    :) Love you

  2. 2 jon Nov 8th, 2006 at 8:31 am

    gargatron! this ain’t like you at all!

    dangit you’re low in self-esteem. I’ve been losing a little bit recently and yeah it’s hard, but a few bottles of water can do wonders. Can fill you up instead of eating stuff you don’t need between meals. :]

    and you ain’t ugly - you’re the garg!

  3. 3 Bunts Nov 8th, 2006 at 1:33 pm

    But Gargy face

  4. 4 Bunts Nov 8th, 2006 at 1:35 pm

    wth where is all of my message ! :

  5. 5 ly Nov 18th, 2006 at 3:46 pm

    oh garg.

    all these things you don’t like about yourself, someone else will love. it’s like me saying no one will like me that way as i have no tits. & this fails as i know you’re not big on boobs anyway :p

    your quirks make you wonderful, so don’t put them down.

  6. 6 Mat^ Nov 27th, 2006 at 11:06 pm

    Know why there’s that thing floating around about me being incredibly good at getting girls?

    Because it’s true.

    And do you know why that is?

    It’s because I have fuck all interest in the things that don’t matter.

    One of those things that doesn’t matter is my appearance, I have a weird body shape (a frame that should be well built, but a stomach that won’t tone and arms like threads) a huge nose and CONSTANTLY a terrible haircut.

    But none of that shit matters, forgetting all of that and just working on being overconfident IS enough to attract girls.

    I realise that I’m going to get torrents of “BUT YOU’RE LIKE, 12!” but whatever, these are the basics, they never change regardless of age.

    P.S. If you can’t bring yourself to take the above advice, exploit ugly girls.

  7. 7 stav Dec 6th, 2006 at 5:42 pm

    All the games that you wanted to play
    What’s hideous
    Not taking part in all the games that you play
    Whats hideous

    shaking it all
    breaking the fall
    thinking youve got it made
    whats hideous

    Taking the calls
    grabbing the walls
    thinking youve got it made
    whats hideous
    a i a i a i a

    You didnt need a person to call
    Now all the things that you wanted to play hey
    whats hideous
    not taking part in all the games that you play

    shaking it all
    breaking the fall
    thinking youve got it made
    whats hideous

    taking the calls
    Grabbing the walls
    thinking youve got it made
    whats hideous
    a i a i a i a

    well you didnt need a person to call

    do you know what is hideous
    do you know what is hideous at all
    its that feeling i had before

    Now all the things that you wanted to play yeah
    whats hideous
    not taking part in all the games that you play

    shaking it all
    breaking the fall
    thinking youve got it made
    whats hideous

    taking the calls
    grabbing the walls
    thinking youve got it made
    a i a i a i a

    now you didnt need a person to call

    do you know what is hideous
    do you know what is hideous at all
    its that feeling i had before

    now all the games that you wanted to play
    whats hideous
    not taking part in all the games that you play
    so.. oooooo
    yeah..oooo
    oo what
    breakdown
    whats hideous

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